Awakening To Love
Chapter 1 - The Soul
The soul is the divine feminine within, it is the feeling body, it is the essence of God Goddess that arises through your feelings. It is often experienced as intuitive feeling, and through the discovering of what you are feeling, you open the doorway to your essential Self, you open the doorway to God.
Life, and even spiritual life and experience, appears to be unintegrated when one is cut off from feeling, from this living spark of the soul, the feeling level within. When this occurs, you experience frustration, in that, even as you know, intellectually, the spiritual laws and ideas that govern this universal realm of light and spirituality, you find that it is hard to live by them, fully, in your life. Your life becomes compartmentalized. You know what living a spiritual life could look like, and yet you find yourself experiencing the antithesis of this in your relationships, your life path, and especially in regard to the relationship with yourself.
So you see this soul, this essence, this feeling level of your being and experience, is so ready to feel what you feel, to feel everything that you feel, and to openly share those feelings with yourself, so that you can use them to navigate your healing, and open yourself to truth and love.
I, the Divine Mother, the Divine Feminine of all, am here inside of this landscape of your soul. I am here to offer to you all that is love, all of the loving that you have missed and have felt disconnected from. Through feeling, and allowing your feelings, you open the doorway to Me, to My loving and to My light, so that I may transform you. But you need to feel what is there to be felt, first, and to accept it as it is, to allow its expression, just as it is, without trying to spiritually bypass it. Open to feeling everything, as a necessary part of your healing and integration. By bringing this integration of love into you and your life, you will experience the greatest sense of peace and joy.
So let Us open you and guide you for a few moments, into this landscape of feeling, into the landscape of soul. Let Us, your Father Spirit and I, place Our loving arms around you, hold you and love you, and accept everything that is present within you, as We accept you, as you are, right now in this moment. You see you do not have to be anything other than what you are, and presently experience, in order to be loved by Us, in order to be loved by Me. You only have to have the willingness to open, and be free in expressing to Me, to Us–your Divine Father and I, everything that you are feeling and everything that you need. In doing this, you open to your soul, you open to the road of freedom, that lies before you and within you. The following meditation exercise is one way, one technique, that brings you into union with Us, that brings you into love and peace, as together we heal any feelings of shame or not inadequacy, that have kept you separate from Us, and your own soul.
Guided Imagery Journey into the Soul Landscape
Instruction: Read through Part 1 and then close your eyes and try the experience in your imagination. After completing this, read Part 2 and return to your meditation experience and imagine the interaction described.
Part 1
Imagine there is a sacred place within you; it can be any place that you would like to imagine yourself residing. If it is hard for you to imagine, perhaps you could call upon a memory of a very beautiful or peaceful place, that you have visited, and allow that to be your sacred place-for communing and sharing with Us, with Me–your Mother Spirit…
So as you imagine or visualize this place, know that it is surrounded by a sacred boundary of love. In this place everything is allowed. Everything that you say or feel will not be heard by others, energetically or otherwise. It will only be heard by Me and your Self, and everything is allowed and will never be judged because it is a sacred part of your journey of healing.
So imagine that you are in this place, and imagine or simply know that I, your Divine Mother Spirit, am here with you, and I want to know everything that you are feeling right now, about your self, your life or whatever is present for you. So give it a try, you can say it to Me on the inside, or you can say it out loud…. Either way, just begin with expressing, what you are feeling right now…
(So We give you some time to fully allow yourself this inner dialogue, of feeling expression.)
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Part 2
Now imagine my love is here with you, that you are held in the arms of a divine feminine angel or guide or Goddess–Divine Mother of all. If this is difficult for you to imagine, then just feel that in this sacred place of love and sharing, you are surrounded by Our Divine Love…
Now imagine what I, your Divine Mother, might say to you, in response to your sharing. Remembering that My words would only be of love, non-judgment and perfect acceptance for how you are feeling, and what you have shared. Imagine what I might say to comfort, love and reassure you……… And receive My love, peace and acceptance. You might not receive specific answers, the important thing at this point is that you open to receive love, an embrace from heaven for everything that you are experiencing…
You have just experienced and opened to the Divine Feminine within, you have opened your soul and have received love. This is your path of healing, and to repeat this exercise as often as possible, and particularly when you feel fear, separation or disturbance, is important.
You may wish to journal about some of your experiences in this exercise, especially in regards to your imagined conversation with Me–your Divine Mother.
The Well of Love
I want for you to know that throughout all of your experiences, you are not alone, and I, your Divine Mother, have never left you alone. At times, what you have told yourself about yourself, and what you have been led to believe from this world reality, has led you to believe that you are guilty or unworthy, and that has led you to further experience, in your darkest moments, the feeling that love is not here for you, that love and God Goddess has abandoned you, and would not feel compassion for you in your current demise, that We would not help you through somehow.
Well even when you have not seen Us or felt your Divine Parents with you, We are with you, We have been present, guiding you and lifting your consciousness, helping you to see that love is here, Our love has always been here for you and We have been making a safe passage for you, throughout your life, and especially in those darkest moments, those times that have most challenged you and perhaps challenge you still.
I am here inside of those moment when you are in your darkness, in your pain. My light is like a star shining that is filtering My loving to you, helping you, as much as I can, to see that there is more that is possible for you, and that this momentary experience will end and you shall move on towards a new tomorrow, a new experience and opening to whatever level of light you are, as a soul, able to receive.
In those moments of your darkest despair I have loved you, even when you have not felt this loving. I have sent to you small miracles, in the form of whatever your consciousness could receive at the time, in the form of love, help and guidance. I can only give to you, in those moments, what your soul is able to receive. The extent to which you can receive, and take in My loving, really depends on the feelings that you have about yourself on this soul–feeling level. So many of your feelings are held on a subconscious and unconscious level, and so this makes it difficult for you to receive because you do not know that you are saying "no", to those things that I would give you, you do not know that you are refusing or denying love. And this is nothing to be ashamed or afraid of. You are here to learn how to open your capacity towards love, towards receiving greater and greater levels of love, every day. I am here to show you and to teach you how you can accelerate that process, by making what is unconscious conscious. I am here to teach you how you can fill the emptiness inside, that causes and creates unhappy experience, and how you can change this and open more completely to love. For love is always here, love is ALWAYS present. I offer to you the deep well of My infinite loving being, and ask you to drink deeply. To drink in, all of the loving that you can possibly take in, at this present time. And of course there is a part of you that says "yes I want it all". But there is also the starving child of the self, the soul body, who has never experienced the deepest level of love, that I offer. So this starving self or child within, has to 'sup' a little at a time, to drink from the well of your own worthiness, in order to then feel worthy of taking in more of the infinite light and love that is available for you to receive, and to fully experience in each moment, that it is given, in the moment that it is fully received.
In order to allow yourself to fully receive, you must learn to forgive yourself for all that you have learned to hold against yourself, and uncover all the erroneous thoughts, feelings and beliefs that have told you that your are not worthy, you are not love, and that your are wrong or guilty, or at fault in some way. Essentially in feeling and being aware of what is not the truth, within you, you can open these feelings to love and let the healing balm of forgiveness move towards yourself, and others, for believing and propagating those lies in the first place.
But this is not an intellectual pursuit, and it is not an exercise of spiritualizing or telling your self what you should do, or believe, or feel instead. It does not work, this bypassing method has been tried, and it has failed, and has led to the life of separation and duality, where the parts of the self that still need loving are left behind. On an energetic level, this leads to the continued experience of pain and living a life that is not integrated within love, and where your outer experience reflects this compartmentalization, even as or when you may regard yourself as holding all the spiritually right ideas.
Our journey of healing and integration operates within the soul, and I have come here to harness this energy and deep healing, for all of the souls on this planet. I am here to leave no stone, inside of you, unturned. I have come to love all aspects of you, every part, to bring every aspect of you home into loving. To help you to know that every part, every thought and every feeling, at every level, of you and your being, deserves to come home, deserves so deeply to drink from the well of My light and love. There is no place inside of you that I do not see, and that I want you to see, through the eyes of love, through compassion for yourself, even in those states or moments of extreme unconsciousness and lovelessness towards others or towards yourself. I am here to love it all and to teach you and show you the way to loving these parts of yourself, so that they, so that you, will feel worthy enough to receive heaven, the heaven that is My unconditional love and light. So here I stand, here I am present with you, to teach you and help you to drink from the well of My love. To allow the elixir of heaven to be taken into your soul, so that your purity and your innocence can be recognized by you, and the unconditional positive regard for yourself can return.
Exercise: healing process with the Inner Soul Child
Instructions: Read the following process through, and allow yourself plenty of time to actively listen to the child within. Like the previous exercise ‘Journey into The Soul Landscape’ this following process is another healing tool to add to your spiritual and soul healing toolbox, that is provided, for you to work with on a frequent basis.
Begin by calling in the light, asking for God, the Divine Mother, and angels, to be with you. Close your eyes and try imagining yourself surrounded by the light of heaven, like a cascading waterfall, flowing down upon you and through you, in love and in light.
Now let us return to the inner sacred place, that you imagined in the previous exercise, a place of great beauty, safety and love.
In a sacred corner of this inner soul sanctuary you see a reflecting pool, a beautiful pool shimmering, with light reflected on its surface. Beside this pool, I, your Divine Mother Spirit, am present, in My loving for you. This time we are joined by a small child, and that child is you, we can call him/her your soul child. This child has a deep need to be loved, and he/she holds all of the stories about you: about why you have not felt loved and completely accepted. He/she needs our help, love, healing and understanding. He/she needs parenting all over again, by Divine parents who are unconditional in loving and positive regard. We can give what your earthly parents could not give, simply because We are Divine and therefore complete within Ourselves, which was not true of your earthly parents and family. They could not give what they had not already found within themselves. But having said that, your soul child is allowed to feel and express all of the feelings that he / she has, because of course the child self, only understands feeling loved, or not feeling loved.
So you and I, your Divine Mother, stand or sit beside this soul child. He/she may seem disheveled, or in need in some way, hungry for love.
Sit beside your soul child as together you reflect on what it is that they have been through or is experiencing right now. Listen to her/him, listen to their feelings, their wounds, their needs. Just hold for them in loving and I will do the same...
Give yourself and your soul child as long as you need, to express your feelings…
Our purpose here is not to change your soul child, or fix them, but to simply listen and love them. To not tell them how they should think or feel differently, (that is spiritually bypassing feelings). Just listen to them and let them feel and share with you, and I, their need.
After a little while you and I offer our loving to them, we may wash their face from the cool waters of the reflecting pool. We may love and nurture them, and hold them, and tell them that its ok, love is here, we are here to take care of them now.
We might ask them what it is that they need right now, and listen and try to give them whatever it is that they need. What children need is often something very simply, like love, to be held, to be played with, and to be nurtured. Listen to them and they will tell you how they want their needs to be met…
I, the Divine Mother, will be the spiritual parent to both of you from now on. I will love you both, help to heal you both, and you can be the loving parent to the soul child also. Listening to what his/her needs are, and learn to nurture and care for yourself in these ways. If you do not know how to parent your soul child, then let Me parent with you, and for you, and so, let your healing begin.
This exercise begins to change all of the lifelong patterns, that are based on yearning for love or feeling separate from the eternal, unconditional loving that you need. This loving can only really be received from God, from union with the Divine Mother Father Spirit of unconditional love, because you see those who have not found love for themselves, within themselves, in this unconditional way, are not capable of giving love to you. So through these exercises, you are learning to love, to find love within yourself, from your true Self and from God Goddess of All That Is. This breaks the pattern of pain, suffering and all difficulty, that essentially arises due to need and feeling separation, from love, and that is the basis of ALL difficulty on this plane of existence.
Photograph by Sally Jordan Austin
